My Stress is Stressful

I am happy. Right now I am happy. I decided to not go back to doing chemo. I have been stressing about it for a week now. I mean I want to stop the chemo and go with the juicing and supplements, but I keep wondering if it is the right thing to do. I know it is the right thing to do, and I believe it will work.

I asked for assurance, for help from a higher power. I kept seeing 1's. Today, after I talked to my mom and sister, I was driving in my car and was thinking about how I told them I was not doing chemo anymore, and still the thoughts of how will I know if this is right or not. I thought "if I turn on the radio, the first thing I hear I will try to see it as a sign" I turned on the radio and I heard "STOP...if you really love me". Really? Stop? Hmmmm. My quandry was do I stay on the chemo or not? Oh, and earlier today I was talking to my chiropractor about what I was going through, and as I waited for her to find a number for me I looked up and there in my face was a picture of asparagus. What was amazing about that? Not only was it a picture of veggies, but a couple months ago i saw a clairvoiant woman. She said many amazing things to me, even though I was only there for her to help me meditate. One of the messages she got for me was to drink asparagus. ASPARAGUS?!?!? She immediately made a face and said eewww, that sounds awful, but it is what they are telling me.

If I read the signs, I have to believe I am on the right path. I looked up the meaning of multiple 1's a few minutes ago. If you see multiple 1's, according to the ladies at Angle Scribe, you should thank God/Spirit/Angels for telling you you are on your path, and to say thank you. Yay... I thanked the "Grandfathers/higher power" when I asked for a sign I was on the right path.... and I will thank them again tonight now that I realize they answered me.

So today is day 3 of juicing. I am doing the FOCC (flaxseed oil and cottage cheese) mix in the morning, and raw veggies veggies veggies, and nuts. So far i am hungry a lot, but I should drink more water,a nd that would probably help.

OK back to the book I bought. And now I have to try not to stress about how the doctor is going to react tomorrow. Deep breath..... Yipes.