the abyss

I stood at the precipice of the abyss and stared into the ebon darkness
Hello? I queried
are you here for me?
I have been waiting for you
why?

aren't you sad? aren't you lonely? haven't you been wronged?
Yes i suppose I have felt that way
Don't you want to belong? don't you want to be special?
Yes I suppose we all want those things
Isn't the darkness comforting? There is no one here to hurt you

I stared into the void, no color no light.
So beautiful
But, How is this better?
Don't question it, just fall into my blissful nothingness
I will love you forever


I stood at the edge of darkness
How it beckons, full of dark promises
dark, dark promises

I stood at the edge of the abyss and looked away from the void
why won't you look at me
I don't want to be here anymore
I love you, I will hold you
I don't need your love, it is deception

fall into me, you will never have to struggle again
Your sinister promises impede my growth.
The trials along my path are lessons i need to learn
my soul grows stronger with each obstacle
You need me,
you need my comforting darkness,
you need my love
I need me, I need enlightenment, I need my love

I walked away from the edge of the abyss
it voiced only lies and empty promises
I did not fall prey to it's deception
I walked back toward the glowing promise of yet to come
I love myself and my love is full of light


Wyant-Pendleton 6/25/2011

Dear Angels

Dear Angels,

I find my resolve waning and I am tired and confused. Will you please help me be well? My strongest desire and what I ask of you is for me to be healthy, and rid of the cancer and excess fluid in my body. Please help me get rid of the cancer and stop the fluid from accumulating. Please make the fluid accumulation stop now so I can finish my chosen supplement treatment with strength and determination.

Thank you so much for listening. I will remain open and willing to accept the help you give me. I am grateful for what the help you give me.

I love you and myself,
Jessica

Letters to Angels

I recently came across the idea of asking for miracles. I want to ask all the time, and wonder if it is possible. Recently I am really tired and not in the best place. I find myself wanting someone to take me by the hand and say "I know exactly what to do to make you well. I know how to rid your body of cancer forever"

I am going to write a letter to the Angels and ask for my miracle. Just wanted the nex post to make sense to anyone who happens to stumble upon my blog.